Trouble again

According to the letter I received from Aaron today, if he gets into trouble one more time he will do 90 days in the hole.
Apparently Aaron had the TV remote and was watching something on TV when a cellmate wanted the remote to change the channel. I don't know the rest of the details but basically Aaron took his frustration out on the dudes face. So Aaron's fix for this issue is for me to put money on the books so he can buy a radio and he can just listen to it and stay out of trouble. I don't know why I find his solution so hilarious. Maybe because it is so typical Aaron. He let me know how much the radio cost too. Wasn't that just special of him. It would only cost me $40 or a $20 radio, that in reality is probably worth $5. I personally don't see it happening anytime soon, I would rather spend the $40 on a nice pedicure. You make your bed you lie in it!

1 year ago

I received a call from Aaron saying he was going to jail for stealing stuff out of Bugg's garage. Bugg was Aaron's boss at one time. It began Aaron's journey into the legal system and our journey into at least some peace in between.

I went to see Aaron today. He had called my phone on Wednesday but I didn't answer it. While I was talking to him I told him I didn't answer because I figured he was wanting to know when I was going to put some money on the books for him. I had told him I would a couple of weeks ago but hadn't gotten around to it. Turns out he was calling because he was having an extremely shitty day and wanted to talk to his  mom. Of course it made me feel bad, I apologized and then let it go. It's not my fault he is in there and couldn't talk to me when he was having a bad day. I also learned today that Aaron is not eligible for parole until September, not July like I thought, so we have a couple more months of peace anyway.

ETA. I just called the prisoner information line out of curiosity. According to it Aaron is not eligible for parole until December. YAY!!!

2 years ago

I meant to write this on Sunday but anyway two years ago Aaron was in the hospital on a ventilator fighting for his life. Here it is 2 years later and by some miracle he is still alive.

It's ironic that this week two of Aaron's "friends" have come into my store. One was on his way to a two month rehab. He was recently arrested for shoplifting. He stopped in to pick up smokes to take with him. I wished him good luck and told him I would be thinking about him. He is the one that taught them all  how to shoot up. I always pictured a much different conversation with him, and not a good one. The second "friend" is the one that sold Aaron pills the night he ended up in the hospital 2 years ago. I ran him out of the hospital when he came to visit Aaron and told him if Aaron died it would be on him. I asked him if he was staying clean, he replied, yes ma'am!! Went on to say he was working in the coal mine and going to school and wanted to become a game warden. He said after everything happened he decided he needed to grow up because he was going nowhere. It's funny how easy it is for somebody to stand there and lie to another person face to face. He is not clean. He looked like crap and I guess he didn't realize since he didn't see me, but his first trip to the sales counter he asked about small pipes. I'm not talking pipes for plumbing either. I'm so glad we don't sell those types of pipes.

Baby birds have cut the apron strings

I thought others might enjoy these pictures of a cardinal family that nested in a clematis vine just off of my patio. These pictures were taken over a period of 20 days. It only took 9 days from hatching for the babies to start leaving the nest. I'm hoping my kids took notes!!

6-10 3 stooges

6-20 Larry and Moe

6-22 Larry, Moe and Curly

6-23 always hungry

6-25 growing like weeds

6-27 what a difference 2 days make

6-28 Larry posing

6-29 Larry has let the building

6-29 Curly still hanging around

6-29 Curly considering an adventure

6-29 Larry proudly sitting in a tree

Officially owned by the state

Court today. Aaron's probation has now been revoked, "officially". Probation violation was the cause. The judge asked Aaron to tell her what caused his violation to which he replied out loud, " positive drug screen". He then dropped his head in what looked like shame. That's good or him I do believe. Not that it really helps though. As Aaron was being led out of the courtroom I motioned at him to call me. I wanted to know the details of what actually was going to happen now. I was truly hoping they weren't going to shock probate him. I heard from him with in an hour. Now for the details. Aaron is eligible for parole on July 17th. WTF!!!???!!!! Do I see my peace ending soon? Yes!! I wonder if the parole board will take a recommendation from an MOA?

Can't process it

I can't get the thoughts in my head straight. They are coming from every direction. I'm really hoping getting them out will help with processing because right now I think I know what it is like in Sybil's head. My thoughts are fighting over which one gets out first.
Me and my husband heard sirens yesterday afternoon, they didn't pass our house, they were very close when they stopped. We are not ambulance chasers normally but ended up hopping in his truck to see were they were out of curiosity. They weren't far, just a few houses away but not in viewing distance from our house because of the way the land lies. We didn't know who lived there, it's rental property and the tenants seem to come and go pretty fast there. The family hasn't been living there for more than a couple of months. We hoped everything was alright and headed back home without any more thought.
My oldest came home from work and told me that our neighbors son W, hung himself from a tree and his kids found him. My first question to him was does he live in the trailer on the hill? He said yes, and all I could do was look at my husband while my heart sank. I'm not sure of his kids ages but they are old enough to be in school. I can't imagine what this family is going through right now. My heart hurts for them. I don't know this family very well, we haven't gotten along very well over the years, but the pain they must be feeling right now has to be tremendous. I don't know W either. With him being older than my kids they weren't best of buds but my boys do know W. I'm stuck on how he can be so damn selfish. I know this isn't how I should look at it but it is one of the thoughts I have had. I also can't get over the fact that he had absolutely no thought of who might find him. This makes me very pissed at him. What those babies had to see. An adult shouldn't have to endure it much less babies. What about the nightmares they may have for years to come? I can't even begin to fathom what might be so wrong in such a young life to make it come to such an abrupt end. I say that but of course being an MOA I know all to well really, which brings up other thoughts. How have we gotten so lucky to still have our 3 kids with us? Another neighbor lost their son because of a car accident. Another although not a close neighbor was arguing with their son on the front porch, he went inside got a gun came back out and shot himself in the head. My brothers friend hung himself 2 weeks ago. It's crazy! Aaron has come so close to death more times than I care to remember and being an addict it's probably more times than I know. I guess it's really not for me to figure out but to learn from.

Jail = Peace at home.

I went to see Aaron today. He seems to be doing good considering where he is. His older brother went along also and that always seems to brighten Aaron up. They still haven't brought him into court to sentence him or whatever it is they need to do to get him back into the state system. As of now he has been in jail for almost 2 months on the county side where he shouldn't be. Nothing else to report on him.

Camping without worry. That's what we did last weekend for my husbands birthday. Just the two of us and although it was extremely hot (99 without factoring in humidity) we had a great time.

Tonight, pina colada's and the pool. No kids at home tonight. Peace!!