Where we stand

I am currently standing on the ground looking down a 100' well while Aaron stands at the bottom of it.

He quit his job with the coal mine contractor due to not working steady. Went back to landscaping. Has now quit landscaping and has gone to a company that has him back in the mines working steady. He has passed several drug tests. Even the random one they threw at him. All sounds great doesn't it? The calls keep coming from bill collectors. They were even coming to my house looking for him. They seemed to have trouble understanding the words, he doesn't live here, until I finally got shitty with them. All of his mail still comes to our house. He needs to change that. This morning, my husband brings me a piece of mail addressed to Aaron. It's from a pawn shop. He said he didn't know if I wanted to look at it or not. I didn't want to. I said I would think about it. So of course I opened it. Yes, I know that I shouldn't have but I had to see if it was something of ours that we haven't missed yet. He has pawned a rifle. I don't know who it belongs to but I know it's not ours and I know it's not Aarons. I can only believe that it is stolen. Aaron is a convicted felon. He cannot be in possession of a firearm. Even tho it is technically at a pawn shop he can still go to jail for possession of it.

I have been working really hard with the phrase "not my circus, not my monkeys". I say it often. Trying my best to stay out of it. It's extremely difficult to stay out of it when the monkey is my son.

Whoomp there it is!!

A bill, from an emergency room, in Pennsylvania. Aaron's next stop is St Louis, Missouri! New bill to come soon! Aaron has also not payed his truck payment in 3 months. That means he hasn't made one payment since he got it. Doesn't look like he is going to quite digging his hole anytime soon.

I've not had to much trouble letting it go but there is an issue I'm struggling with. So my wise peeps please give me your advise. Aaron has been staying with his girlfriend and her father for quite some time. I don't think they have a clue as to what is going on. Do I tell them? Do I tell Aaron he has a week to tell them or I will? OR, do I stay out of it and let him continue to dig his hole? My gut tells me to stay out of it. My heart tells me to tell her dad before (hopefully before) Aaron starts stealing from him.

Confidence fades away

Shortly after my last post and comment about being confident Aaron wasn't using, I discovered some things that changed my level of confidence greatly. Aaron traveled to Colorado recently for work. He went to a doctor in Colorado. Aaron traveled to Indiana for work. He went to a doctor in Indiana. Aaron traveled again to Indiana for work. He went to a doctor just across the state line in Illinois. Aaron has recently traveled to Pennsylvania for work. I'm expecting to see another bill from a doctor. Aaron is not paying his bills. He has taken out two small loans. He isn't paying those either! If it walks like a duck and talks like a duck, well, it's not a bear! I told him what I know and what I think. He won't admit to anything of course. The locks have been changed. We are once again on the roller coaster. I should say he is on the roller coaster. I'm working hard to stay off of it this time. I am however still digging out from under the ton of bricks that fell on me!

Missing

From our home, one ring, one cross bow, one compound bow. Aaron denies the ring. Both bows are in a pawn shop. He says he's clean. I don't know what to feel today. Trying to hold it together!

Completely unrelated

I have added a new link to my page. Completely unrelated to Aaron, addiction, or being a POA.
This man (my oldest son) needs help. Please share so he can get the donations he needs to pay for oral surgery. More info can be found thru the link. Any help will be greatly appreciated! If you have any questions please feel free to contact me!!!

Please help Shane

Seriously? Did you not hear me?

I'm not sure what has been going on lately with me, but I find myself being irritated easily. It could be the full moon coming up. It could be I'm becoming less tolerant of stupid. Whatever it is I think I have handled myself quite well considering how much stupid I have dealt with this week. I won't bore you with all the stupid. Just one piece of stupid. 

Wednesday at work (I manage a tobacco store) I received a phone call, the following is the conversation I had... 

me: Joe Schmoo tobacco mart (ok I made up the Joe Schmoo part, tobacco mart is true)

caller: I'm needing to speak to the person in charge of advertising.

me: That would be me.

caller: Hi, I'm so and so from (kinda garbled not sure I heard right) and we are getting ready to put out our new magazine and we're looking for advertisers. (did she really say what I think she said)

me: I'm sorry, who did you say you were with?

caller: The Kentucky DARE association (I heard right)

me: Oh OK. Uhm, who exactly receives this magazine? The parents or the school children?

caller: The children

me: So do you think it's appropriate for a tobacco store to advertise in a magazine that will be passed out to school children?

caller: Well ma'am you don't have to if you don't want to.

me: I don't believe this has anything to do with wanting to or not. Do you think you should be calling tobacco stores asking them to advertise in a magazine that will be passed out to school children?

caller: We are calling everybody.

me: I think you might want to rethink calling everybody!

The caller then abruptly says thank you, have a nice day and hangs up before I can continue!

I"m still not sure what part of "tobacco store" she did not understand?!?!

I wonder how far I could have gotten trying to advertise a coupon for $2 off a carton of cigarettes? 

Almost a year and the effects on my POA brain!

We are about two weeks shy of the one year mark. A year since I picked up Aaron from jail. A jail stay that was two months shy of two years. Such a peaceful time! I knew where he was. I had to assume he was clean and sober. I didn't have to lock everything up. I didn't count the guns, I didn't check the camera bag, I didn't take my purse to my bedroom and I didn't keep my bedroom door locked at all times! Guess what? I still don't!! Except for keeping my bedroom door locked at all times because I have a convicted felon in my home and that's where we keep the guns. However, a couple of weeks ago my heart fell to my stomach when I realized something was out of place. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I was just sitting here in my chair with my laptop on my lap. I suddenly realized something was missing. It took a second for me to figure out what was missing. The WII. Where the hell is my WII?  I don't think I have to tell you what my first thought was. My second thought was he probably took it to his girlfriends house so they could play it but I didn't believe that to be true!!

For years the WII has sat just to the left of the clock on the TV stand.

So I closed the laptop, and grabbed my phone to text Aaron. 

 And this is what I saw!

See what "I" had done with the WII!!! I bought that stand for the WII a couple of months ago. The boy fried my brain with his drugs!!!

OK, you can stop laughing now!!